Relief :)

hmm.. two days ago ( 18th Dec 2012 ), I had my driving test.

I failed my on the hill.

I was shivering from the beginning so I think it couldn't b help that i'd failed it.

and of course, I was sad n disappointed upon myself.

but I hv faith that I can do better next time on the coming 31st.



oh, Monday, I went out with Eevia.

my very 1st tuition fren that I actually noe her name n kept n touch ;)

v went karaoke, was fun xD

Despite my mum scolded me again that day.. she said Im cruel.

I think so too...



today, I dated with Chin Zhi dear <3 :d=":d" p="p">
before that, I went out with my mum n grandma. Happy family time, I love it x)

hmm, not really too special about it actually.

maybe its because tomorrow is 21st of Dec, the world end day.

so I felt more grateful today for everything I have around me ;)

so me n Chin Zhi did a lot of talking, a serious tension release to me after a talk with Jessie dear on Tuesday too.

I love my darlings! I noe I made u guys worried so much for me.. thank u all!

after that v went to watch Life of Pi.

a movie Chin Zhi had always wanted to watch n a movie I heard how meaningful to b watched.

well, it didn't let me down. it was great.

I realised I m a coward cause if i were Pi, maybe i would just choose to die n sink with my family instead of keeping myself alive.

i couldnt let go of my family, i cant imagine how can i ever live without them.

but Chin Zhi made me realised that why must i give up?

i do i hv to run away every single time when i face a problem?

why cant i learn to grow up?

so i know now. for how selfish, immature and a coward i m.

i must grow. to b a better one :)



then i went home straight to my bedroom, lay in front of my new laptop.

a laptop my mum bought for me to let me hv a better laptop to do my homeworks.

it shows how loving my mum is towards me. she loves me so much :')

my mum came in. she sat quitely beside me.

a little bit of a akwardness.. so i thought i should say something.

i shared with her the story of Life of Pi.. and my feelings after watching it.

i dont remember how we went in to the topic of that pig, although it just happened 15mins ago, but we did.

so we talked.

i told her i noe im such a coward but in this friendship with tis pig, i wasnt a run-away.

i was scared by him.

he is a scary man.

i knew cause i observed.

i dint just decided it without thinking n understanding.

he is scary.

he is using my mum to get to me just because i ignored his sms n calls.

he is faking to be a good fren at the same time trying to just get me.

so scary that i wanted to run .. disgusting.

i can feel goosebumps.



my mum dint say a thing after that. just like out 1st yelling fight.

she did the samething by just hugging me, saying nothing.

im affraid maybe that ive hurt her again this time but i really hope i dint cause this time i really made everything clear.. everything i thought n felt to her..

i felt relieve.

i just hope everthing will get better from now..

i love my mum n family.

i noe im being ridiculous but i really hope my family relationship wont change forever.

v can b happy n love each other..

ok.. i just LOVE THEM!!!! >w<



hehe...weird post again i noe..

but to me a great day.. really. love u all <3 br="br" x="x">



 

Confusing Plans ╮(╯▽╰)╭

u can really get unlucky when u hv no luck.. trust me..=3=

i really din plan to go CF at all, so i sold my ticket to Florence dear.

then i was reminded i hv a group on day 1.

but who cares~ i din prepare the costume, so cant go also.

thn they say go borrow.. fine, i go find ppl borrow cuase i know a really big probability she wont borrow me the costume, so i just chill saja~

=-= after so many days she din reply me, i was so happy thinking she dont wanna borrow.

i was like:" yay~ not to say i din try ar~ i tried ald~"

thn suddenly she so genorous pm me saying "no problem ar :) "

*SHOCK*!!!

ORZ...

thn Shamira wanna borrow my Miku wig on CF day 1 oso... orz...

last time she borrowed me her wig, i cant possibily say no to her... plus she's my friend...

Deng....

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thn Monday (10th Dec 2012) 

a day that i hope plan for any photoshoot.

i actually thought Elyon finally forgot bout the Miku yukata shoot, but she actually remember n planned it too..

for god sake, she should hv know the yukata belongs to Jessie dear, so definately shouldnt ask Alex to shoot. 

Who knows she so "SMART" x_x

haiz, summore tell me: " that day ar before u get on to the car he knew bout the yukata thn he say dun shoot de leh~ thn u come he say shoot~" like she si beh beh song..=w=" but if u got brain oso know u shouldnt find him in the 1st place la...@x@

suan... hv to wake up to make up.. thn Alex with his usual late habit, i waited from 11 to 3pm..WTF...

go there feed mosquitoes saja... now i got trauma seeing mosquitoes...==

i think above these two incident, the main problem is i dunno how to reject ppl ==

i should really just b firm to myself, dun "soft hearted"

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thursday ( 13th Dec 2012)

the miss "smarty" originally planned the MONDAY like this:

shoot 4 miku version in A DAY!

walao...sometimes i was thinking is she really human? @w@"

her single Mr. miku shoot

thn the 2 yukata miku shoot.

thn my wedding miku shoot.

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._.  wat can i say?

that time promise her shoot i was actually joking saja...

this is what ppl call “嘴賤" =x=

she ask me go ask alex wats the plan 4 monday, n wen i ask alex was like "wth? 4 shoot in a day?"

obviously she din tell anything in details...

so i told him i don think can fit in a day, i'll change my shoot to thursday instead n try persuade her to give up on yukata.. so obviously i failed...x_x

nvm la... wen ppl very unlucky anything can happen de lar...

thn go Bridal shoot.. actually din plan to shoot oso de.. if wasnt Elyon, i dun think i would even go 4 a shoot..

n i din plan to find Alex.. cause actually wanted Jessie dear teman me de...haiz...

nvm la, happened ald oso...

so he was late AGAIN as usual, then went to putra jaya onli say this light not good la, this place not nice la... if u come earlier mar no problem lo...haiz...

suan la, 有求於人……

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ytd firday (14th Dec 2012)

so school to discuss proposal...

conclusion: im stil the one hv to do everything =w="

thn go play pool wif classmates, not bad la..

see them lose kao kao xDDD 

>D

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today (15th Dec 2012 )

learn car... haiz... cacated dao... Q3Q 

Nex tuesday exam ald... wish me luck bah...

kan- cheong ar!!!!!!!!!!!! >x<)o

其實originally picture很漂亮的。。edit 出來。。。唉。。 ╮(╯_╰)╭

假假~

終於知道欲哭無淚是怎樣的一個感覺了……QAQ

天哪！！早知道就天天勤勞的CHECK E-MAIL 啦！

十一天前！？

老師！早知道我就給你我的電話啦！

你線了給我就打電話給我嘛！

嗚……現在要我去哪裡變個PROPOSAL給你啊！

QAQ

老師，你又不是不知道我班的男生是怎樣一個懶！

他們是絕對懶好不好！

包括我在內啦！全班懶到一個不行耶！

聖誕節？老師！我完蛋了啦！QAQ

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嗯……我只想說不管你線幾個sms給我都沒用。

我對你簡直是謝敬不敏。

打電話給我？

我跟你很熟咩？

拜託，你還嫌你弄到我的母女關係不夠爛？

噁心……

托你的福，我現在跟我媽的相處還是小心翼翼的！

吊你娘的！

醬多人死，不見你死! 偏偏就愛來打擾我平凡的生活，死吧！

什麽？線個SMS來說我有心事！？

去你的吧！

我現在過得好、睡得好！豬一般的生活，奢侈得很！

為你的麻煩就是你這個多事的傢伙！

有心事跟你說？死吧！我跟豬說都不跟你說啦！白癡！

沒事不要打擾我，我很困擾！

媽的！

所以我才討厭男人！

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假期~

過的還不錯~

不過我太過分了……懶到一個不行……

要開始努力了！

加油~ xD